Feeling upset.

So a little earlier, for some reason, I started to cry for like a half hour..I'm not really sure why I'm talking about this because I don't like letting people know how I feel, especially when I know they don't care. I really do think it's because I'm off of my medicine. I got to hug Tyler and it made me feel a little better :). I'm actually not going to see Megan tonight because I want to see Malayna since I'm feeling really depressed. I can see Megan sometime this week and that's good. Ugh, I don't want to be in school right now!! It's making me want to pull real bad right now..I want to just tear my hair out!! Maybe I can tan after school, that always makes me feel better. I want to go for 15 minutes this time because 8 minutes is not enough. Since I went tanning one time and it relaxed me so much, I feel so much better after it!! Nothing really to do...so I'm going to do a survey.

Who is your best friend?
Malayna, Megan and Jess/Tania.

Do you like dancing?
Yeah but I suck at it.

Do you think it was rihanna's fault?
This is the dumbest question ever.

Who's your favorite celeb?
Elisha Cuthbert.

Love school or hate it?
Hate it!!

What grade are you in?
12th.

Are you a minor or 2 dumb to know what that is?
Yes I am, but I'll be 18 on Saturday!!

Favorite song this week?
Hmm, it's some T-Pain song and a couple others.

Favorite show this week?
What I Like About You.

Was it crazy when Adam Lambert was in the bottom 2 on American Idol or what?
I don't really care....

Have you ever been on the computer longer than 10 hours?
Nope! That's just plain pathetic unless you really have nothing else to do.

What do you do when your home alone?
I listen to music, clean, watch T.V./movies and do stuff like that. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Have you ever peed in the pool?
Yes I have C;.

What's your favorite soda?
Uhmmm, I don't know. Don't really have a favorite. I really like grape pop.

Favorite name brand of water?
Water is water.

When was that last time you got in a fight?
I've never been into a fight because fighting is STUPID.

Target or Wal-mart?
Target!!!

Were you ever so scared you peed in your pants or threw up?
Nope, not that I remember..

Ever did something dramatic to impress someone?
Kind of! Well, actually, not really.

What do you think about this survey?
It passed up time..

Favorite artist?
I have many. Not just one..I really don't have a favorite actually.

The whole week off, what will I do?

So I have the whole week off from work. It's definitely not something I'm totally used to and it'll be interesting. I get to see Megan today and I haven't seen her in awhile so I'm excited for that :). I've been cleaning soo much this weekend and it's not even funny! It was for a particular someone but I might as well look at it as a, "Hey, you need to be cleaning for you, not for anyone else!" Ha :). I made tuna salad yesterday and I used white tuna, BAD IDEA! It would have been so good other wise :(. I need to catch up on my work for school. I only have a couple weeks left and I'm slacking bad. I'm not really sure what my problem is. I'm really mad though that I can't graduate on time..I want to live my life normally and I can't do that if I'm stuck here in school all of the time! I wish I could go back in time, things would be so much different. I could have ditched John, passed my classes, maybe have long hair still and I wouldn't be here. No offense to Creative Arts or anything..but I do miss Harding because I was there for 3 years and all of my friends were there. The perks to being here though is that there aren't so many outrageous rules and I met Tyler..but other than that, sorry.

I do that wayyyy too much. I sulk around about the past..what I COULD have done. I know I shouldn't do that but I do mainly because I know that things would be a heck of a lot easier if I hadn't been so lazy and depressed. I know you can't help being depressed but if I had avoided John then I wouldn't have been. If I had also avoided Jason I could have dodged a lot of pain! Boys I tell yea, they are somethin' else. I'm not feeling very up to anything today. I was but..I'm just not anymore. Actually, I feel kind of depressed. Is it because I don't have my medicine?? I don't know!! But I wish I could figure it out. It's driving me crazy..and I'm really tired. So I just need to sleep after school because I don't feel up to being around anyone. I wish I wasn't here :(. Ugh..it's so hard right now, everything is.

Flickr Project

So I think I've finished it. I probably didn't do the best job on it..but I'm not a miracle worker lol. Here's my link, hope it works.

www.flickr.com/photos/jackjackjackgirl

As you already probably know, the photos are backwards so start from the bottom and go to the top.