Weight.

What's the message to this rant or point? How do you feel about body image in our culture? How has weight impacted your life or thinking? How important to you is size?

Well I'm not really sure what your message was..but I feel that people judge wayyyyy too much in this culture about how you should look. It really disgusts me. I hate it so much and I wish I could be comfortable with myself but I'm honestly not. I can't wear shorts because I feel too uncomfortable and I don't like to eat in front of guys I like which is even more stupid. I mean come on, what if we didn't have any of that then we probably wouldn't have such a thing called an Eating Disorder unless a small percentage of girls still felt the way they did. I obsess over food and I don't like it. I obsess about how much I've eaten, how much weight I lose, gain, keep. It got to the point of where I would just cry because I didn't want to eat. I don't want to be scared of food. I want to love it but I don't want it to control my life. Size to me in a way is important but it's not important at all to another part of me. Like for me, I don't want to get past a size 9 because that's what I'm at right now but another side of me is like WHO CARES, being way under that is just gross for your body (not for others who are naturally skinny). So I kind of have little arguments with myself, am I crazy? Maybe..