Another day :\!

So ... I was at Tania && Jess's yesterday and I was talking to their dad, which by the way he talks a lot because he just loves me!! :). My birthday is coming up in May on the 23rd and their mom's is on the 26th so he wants to do a BBQ for her and I :). It made me smile that one of my friend's parents actually wanted to do something like that for me. Actually, that ANYONE wanted to do something like that for me other than some immediate family. Although I really don't have the heart to tell him that I don't like BBQ so I told Jessie to tell him to grill some hot dogs for me because those are one of my favorites. I have to figure out what to get for their mom now, grr. I'm not very good at picking out gifts but I am good at picking out cards.

Yesterday, I pulled a few..or 10 hairs and it made me feel soooo guilty. It literally makes me feel like I have betrayed my hair! I think it's because my hair is so nice and thick that when I pull it I'm just damaging it and ruining it. I feel like it has been beautiful for me and I'm just showing that I don't care at all when I pull but that is EXTREMELY silly. It's hair, not a person or animal and it's a disorder so I know that I can't help it! Plus, I keep telling myself that you'll have to shave AGAIN if you pull a lot so DON'T PULL!! It's sooo hard and the urge is sooo unbearable sometimes :(. But I know I can do this, especially with God by my side :). I hate how my body craves the feeling but I love the feeling. BOO. That's all I have to say about it, but I can do this. I'm HUNGRY!!!