My blog of the day.

Hmmm, so I suppose I have a thought or two about some things. Mainly one thing, I guess. First off, Justin and I didn't get to go to the movies last night :(, but I actually didn't mind this time. I was too tired to care. I didn't get to bed early though and I'm not sure why I have such trouble sleeping at night. I did have insomnia last year at one point for a week straight and it was BAD! But I don't know if that's the case this time. I'm just a night person and it's hard for me to fall asleep. Then I had like one or two dreams that were just crazy. One of them had zombies in it and they're my favorite thing, but they also really scare me and I love it. But the dream wasn't so nice :(. Then there were tornados. For some reason I would always have dreams and my favorite teachers were the tornadoes, trying to get me. But now the tornadoes aren't anyone specifically, they are just tornadoes coming after me. Or I'll have dreams of me being up in extremely high places. Usually, my dreams are dark and don't really have happy endings. Sometimes I can jump really high and sometimes I can fly but I have trouble most of the time. It's getting to the point where I want to fall asleep because my dreams are so fascinating that I just like to be in them. I love love love scary movies and my dreams are like living in one :), I hope that doesn't sound creepy. Whatevvv ;D.

Also, we have this assembly to talk about gays, lesbians and bi-sexuals that is mandatory. I'm definitely not against me but some little part of me is. I am not going to lie, I am bi-sexual deep down but I have chosen to just ignore it and put God first. I'm not going to lie, it's hard but I know God will help me through this. Maybe some of you will disagree with what I have chosen to do but this is what I feel I need to do and the thing is, I never wanted to marry a girl anyway. I have had strong feelings for one particular girl but it was never going to work out and I'm glad because I would have probably eventually fallen in love with her. I definitely don't want that to happen..it's happened too many times for my own good! I am listening to this Britney Spears CD with If U Seek Amy, Womanizer, etc and it's really good :). People are always surprised when I tell them I listen to all kinds of music. Sometimes people assume I just listen to rock because of the way I dress sometimes and it's irritating but I just ignore it. :)